Unbinding

I wlll never be entirely free of my Saturn Moon

A destiny that at times fates me

Towards dark days of gloom

Where huge absences and hollows deep

Open up before me sucking me down for a while

Holding memories and ancestral imprints

Of all those times

Along the generational lines

That lives and love were taken

Or movements came to

Resist the pain

That at times seemed

Insurmountable.

Today I realised

While centering deep inside

This legacy of separations is the burden I must bear

And just possibly it fates me for a life alone

But not one without connections

Maybe my connections will come

Through reading

Through writing

Through poetry

Through trying in some small way

To highlight deeper truths obscured

Through shining a light

For those also captured by darkest of nights

Maybe my greater purpose always was

These paths not taken

And the loss of love

The struggle to be

To birth

To emerge

To fall back again

That make me only human in the end

At times bound to fail

And at others to fly

High on the feeling of joy

That visits only

For a fleeting time