I wrote this 3 days before my mother died. I think I always looked for that ocean I was estranged from, for years I searched in alcohol, drugs and relationships. Now when I touch my pain and sadness and yes my full life and joy I find that ocean both within me and all around me. Its where I woke today so I sharing this poem again today. ❤

Mother
You are my link to being
To earth
To my body
And also to my deepest soul
When that connection is broken or damaged
I am a satellite floating through space
Untethered to anything
Emptiness haunts me
And unrequited longing floods my cells
But in a place deep beyond mental knowing
I just feel lost
And as if I cannot breathe
Now when I see how your life is leaving
I see so much more than I ever could before
How can I explain it in words
It is impossible
And so in this hospital room I sit silently
Watching your hooded eyelids droop
Under the seduction of sedation
Pulling you inward
Down so deep
So very far from me
But in that silence
A deeper infinitude opens up
And I am floating in a sea of memory
And my heart and soul is telling me truths
We lived…
View original post 76 more words