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I miss my Mum

Well its Christmas morning here in Australia and I have a lot of thoughts going around in my mind.   I just tried to bake my first mini pavlova, for those who don’t know what that is its a meringue and I will serve it with berries and cream.  Its something Mum made for my sister and I two years ago on Christmas.   I am missing my Mum and all the circumstances surrounding her death are playing over in my mind and the part I played in encouraging that visit by my nephew and his daughter that ended in disaster.  There was so much trauma involved that we had never spoken about nor felt, so much below the surface, its no wonder so much errupted.  I know I was powerless over it. Had I disengaged things may have played out in a different way.  Today I just miss my Mum.  Nothing can bring her back.   And now my life is very different.  I have to work to find a way forward in the aftermath with the long history of memories I carry.  Its not easy but it can be done. I just cant be alone with it all the time, that is for sure, its too much.

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