For me Dad You will always be alive In my imagination We never really got to know each other There was a chasm we could not cross I felt you so far away In another land Though close to me Is it any wonder I struggled so much To be close to men in my life
But now I imagine where your spirit has gone Into the ether Or fishing off a celestial beach Living the life you never got to live on earth
1985
Songs of innocence take me back To that world Something changed irreversibly When you were taken so suddenly And its so hard to fathom now Where I went And all the ghostly paths of exile I travelled Always silently crying out your name Fearing to get close to anyone again They could never know the ghosts that haunted me
Its taken me years too To now feel you silently breathing In the air that surrounds me Never really far away Yet never truely found A mystery I will never fathom A ghost that will walk with me for the rest of my days
And yet there is too, a curious love I do not fully understand And the acceptance of a destiny never chosen that I must embrace
Emerging From The Dark Night 
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