I feel so heartbroken when I read trauma posts of sufferers who have had so much stolen from them. I have had a lot of my own life stolen by trauma either that occurred to myself or others. I struggle too with its impact and it has become almost an obsession with me. I see the evidence of it all so clearly in our world and today was listening to a very interesting discussion on fear and anxiety today on the radio here in Australia. One of the things discussed was how world leaders steeped in their own fear are now using fear to control others. We are seeing it in North Korea now. We are a world almost drowning in fear and a world also stuck in a fear flight reaction to multiple fears which is like an endless feedback loop of trauma, attack and defence recycling over and over and over again.
What was also discussed in the programme was how fear is a direct result of abuse and how important it is to take action to get away and also to recognise that fear isn’t a mental illness its a valid response to life or death threatening situations. It may not be your life that is at risk it may be your emotions for when some one traumatises you by disrespecting your body, feelings or being they steal from you a very important thing, a sense of your own boundaries, being and core integrity and they play havoc with your emotions. If you come away with the truth trapped or locked deep inside and then go to someone who won’t listen, hear, feel with you or let you unpack it, someone who shames you further then you are left not only with the original trauma but the traumatic response and implications due to earlier trauma as a reaction. You may then turn to substances to silence the screaming inside only to have your health and sanity compromised even further.
I don’t have a lot of time to write a longer blog here and this one raises more questions than it answers but my question is this. Is it possible for us to have a life of goodness outside of trauma? Last week I tried to share a little from Peter Levine’s book on restoring goodness and finding a life outside trauma as it is very much where my own focus is now. It saddens me so much to see bodies that continue to suffer due to the medical profession not dealing adequately not only with the neurochemistry behind trauma but also with learning techniques to alter chemistry in ways that are not purely medication focused. We find ourselves in the sad state of affairs now where people are over diagnosed and medicated for ‘disorders’ which are natural responses to long term multiple and often multi generational trauma. When we try to numb the body out again we aren’t actually dealing with what is encoded in cells that needs to be released or rewired. As my last chiropractor told me ‘Trauma is stored as vibrational charge” Emotions we suffer, feel or are left with and our reactions to them do affect our neurochemistry as well as the structure of cells. Is a complex and precarious issue and one we need to deal with so urgently for the good as well as the future of humanity.
Emerging From The Dark Night 