I wish you could enter your pain because entering your pain is entering your heart. When you ask your body to carry a hurt your heart wont accept into you, don’t you see how much your pain grows? And it looses then its transformative purpose. It is hard for you to look honestly as that involves embracing your inadequacy that is not real it was just a part of your conditioning and yet, paradoxically, inadequacy is real too and facing it will be the doorway to the long corridor of liberation that opens other doors, other insights into other rooms.
I wish you could but then again, is my wish really the will of the universe for you? Am I just trying to make myself more comfortable in the hopes I will have a companion when the truth is the deepest part of our emotional and spiritual journey really takes place alone, in the depths of a soul that is called?
Uranian people do stand out from the crowd. We are not just choosing to be difficult. If we hear the beat of a different drummer at times to ordinary earthlings do we answer, remembering always that our true home for now is earth but we came from afar? So many questions: the answers to which can only be heard in the stillness. Mars on Uranus you tell me this is a time of yearning for a deeper connection and that connection is found within but has a universal component. For purposes of the soul deeper separation is only an illusion.
This inner connection does not mean that you are disconnected but more deeply connected than you ever could be when standing on the same soil. For everyone who has ever formed part of our journey in any way is in truth on some level still woven into the fabric of our own being. The past is present in memory but we live in the now and here two worlds meet. We should not have to ‘forget’ the past as that speaks of a rejection of basic facts that were so essential to the formation of our soul. Without those events, that pain, that hurt, that loss would we really have go to know the tumultuous landscape of our own soul, the inner Lovelands of our personal emotional and spiritual geography?
Comes to mind now from one of my favourite movies the expression the whole universe is inside you. Googling this I just found it is a Rumi quote which seems to be true. We can travel worlds within worlds within worlds without leaving our arm chair and we can in the quiet magnificent space of this inner world meet and heal so much in an instant if we open the door and allow it all in. I firmly believe that to be true.
Emerging From The Dark Night 