When the losses of your past possess your soul
It is so hard to let go
When memories of those connected times
Of months you spend surrounded by natures gift
Living as you did
On the brink of the meadow
Cycling at twilight
Through cow parsley waist high
Return
And you think of how much promise there was
And how much unravelled
It feels as if your heart couldn’t expand wide enough
To fully encompass all the tears and pain
And yet there is some sweet relief in finally being able to feel
The true reality
That has been caged and locked down
Deep inside your heart for so long
Today you said to me
This is you saying goodbye to Jonathan
Yes, and I can never go back
So I must cherish what memories I can
And be grateful we had that summer
Where nature’s gifts surrounded us
Before everything shattered
And the dark night came down
Like a heavy blanket
Separating us
From connection
From love
Robin I remember you
I can never go back
But in my mind’s eye I watch you hop along the fence
And cry with remembering
How much your gentle presence
Was loved
“if we were not capable of laying our desires to rest, returning them to pure energy, we would be enchained forever, prisoners of what we once held dear.”
Gray Crawford
Emerging From The Dark Night 