The bed of nails you made me lie in
Every night is remembered by my body
As I lay me down to sleep
I remember the pain of the head brace you made me wear
In your pursuit for perfection
Did you have any idea how much my entire face ached
Now that they cut the old bridge out
The new one clamps me down
Body memory
But I am not that young girl any more
On the brink of adulthood
So uncertain, so unsure of who she was as a girl
Not able to let go and trust
Braced inside against the anticpated onslaught
It’s why when we first got together
By body would jerk all over the place
It angered you
I got a serve
And it was harder and harder to relax
Now I live the memory
Knowing I did absolutely nothing wrong
You made it worse
Why did I stay in this torture?
It was all I knew
I cry for me now
That I thought I deserved no better
Now I must live with the memory
But never again will I let it haunt all my days and nights
It will be the touchstone I can touch
And then release
Putting it in a safe place
Where the memory cannot hurt me any more
Emerging From The Dark Night 