The blackness of the Sagittarius Moon draws us inward to accept the circumstances of our life and everything that has correspondingly been stirred up from within during this past year. Many unexpected things have happened during a year of incredible mutable activation in astrology, and as we let go of what we had expected and open to what has now arisen, a new perspective will begin to coalesce and clarify the meaning of all the changes that have come about in 2016 so far. The intuitive capacities inherent in Sagittarius support witnessing and observing all of our inner feelings and coming to a sense of fresh vision and meaning that will bring inspiration in the coming months. There is a whirlwind of transpersonal, outer planet activation in tandem with the Sagittarius New Moon that makes exploration of our unconscious and everything we have been keeping out of conscious awareness imperative.
Gray Crawford : Sagittarius New Moon November 28
I was so moved to read this a few moments ago. I was aware that in the blog I wrote this morning I spoke of being a witness which is what Gray talks of in this take on the coming New Moon in Sagittarius. Sagittarius relates to the wider picture, the inner meaning we make of a very long journey, which I feel started so, so very long before we were even born with the lives of our ancestors who carried their own problems, hopes, dreams, difficulties, losses, ambitions and need to survive.
I could not help thinking of all of this after sitting with my Mum this afternoon and sharing about so many things. I could not help think of what in being driven into the unconscious in our ancestral history plays out and results in all kinds of wounds and challenges which stretch us to the very limit of our humanity.
As Mum hobbled to the door on her walking stick and I saw how she had shrunk even further with the latest challenge upon her, I was overcome with such a wave of feeling and realisation. I felt her long, long journey to here and of how much her body has carried and buried. As I sat with her I thought of the little girl who lost her own father at 7 and I thought of how I never knew either of my grandfathers, as both died, one many, many years before I was born and the second in the first year of my life.
I was overcome with deep respect for Mum and also the awareness of the pain of losses we both suffered but could not share, of how I was always flung out over to a place far away at a time of loss and how years later I unconsciously repeated that pattern causing myself further harm and loneliness, not that I could have known before or when I took certain decisions what was really driving me or that that would be the result. I just felt I could not lean on anyone and so I had to go so far away. But I also know that was exactly what my maternal great, great grandfather did 167 years ago, however it was his mother that had died and his own father would grieve his absence over long, long years. This time of year corresponds with my GG grandfather’s migration. He is very much on my mind today.
I seem to have gone on a bit of a tangent and it is hard to explain fully in words but Gray Crawford’s words rang very true for me today, as I read other blogs I am aware of similar themes for others, the grief so many have to feel over the recognition of very harsh realities, severe abuse in some circumstances and situations, losses of things that were not really working but never the less provided a support in others.
The lunation squares the outer planet Neptune with rules illusion and the dissolving of illusion. The dream of how we wished things could have been often falls so dramatically short of the reality we have to live and in the gap between these two we can often drown. For sometimes the pain seems too deep, it feels as if the journey has been too long, or the circumstances too harsh and yet is it possible that on some level through accepting this that we can find healing and come back to love? Can we explore our own pain and unconscious to find the deeper layers too of what may be motivating us, what gifts can come if we have the courage to face it and allow necessary illusions and hopes to die?
After feeling so wound up over my Mum’s pain today I finally felt a release as I bought the two pieces of sushi to take over for her and then donated some money to the World Vision collector in the shopping centre on the way back to my car. He smiled at me with a big smile and asked me “How was your day?” Did he see the tears in my eyes when I said ” not too bad” and then walked away with a feeling of release on some level? All around me people where rushing past with coffees in their hands I was aware that the price of a cup of coffee for some children or people in underprivileged countries could make a huge difference.
What am I trying to express here? I guess it is that no matter how difficult the daily circumstances of our lives we can still make the choice to face things, accept reality and front up. We may spend years crippled by grief or the aftermath of losses, acceptance of harsh realities might take some time, but in the end its what we do with the pieces that are left that makes the difference. That we try to reach for, express and give love to me seems the most essential lesson. A very simple Neptunian lesson for today. That we try to rearrange the pieces into a new pattern rather than just sit on the ground forever crying over the wreckage (although this is a very necessary stage of our healing, too.)
In the final hours of the old moon cycle can we reflect on what we learned as we faced the depths of Scorpio over the past month, the lessons that may have been an intensification of pain and lessons or grief, sadness or anger we may have been working to integrate over some time? Can we raise our eyes from our pain to look forward as the archer does recognising the part the very real and challenging limitations of this earthly travail have wrought on our spirit? Can we feel compassion for our own struggle and the struggle of others? Can we find a sense of freedom, purpose and meaning through it? Can we move forward in and with love? I certainly feel that we can. For the world does need us to keep loving and reaching for compassion, it asks our heart to say open in the midst of all the pain and unconsciousness in order that we can learn more, accept more, embrace more, heal more and find the value within even that which has been painful, challenging difficult and dark. This is the healing insight I have felt this afternoon in the dark phase of the moon. Completion, resolution as a precursor to yet more journeying as we travel nwards together. New Moon Blessings to everyone. .
Emerging From The Dark Night 