Please come back : A poem for my sister

Winters rain fell down in my heart

There were years of long shadows

When we were torn apart

I did not know where you travelled

The depth of the journey

Life’s path took you on

Sister

Now there is a shadow across your face

You are lost somewhere

And deep in your heart it is winter

The way in is barred

Shedding the tears they stole from you

I can only cry whenever we speak

There is no way to bridge this chasm

And the one’s taking control

Seem to have lost touch with who you really are

Did they ever see you

It must sting so deeply

You gave so much

Now not to be seen

Felt deeply

Understood

They are playing with your chemistry

No good can come of it

I can no longer scream down a house

That is fully dismantled

So I am just a long way off

Watching silently

Reverting to the first step

Powerlessness

I don’t want to see another sister

Disappear

I have already lost one

Please come back to me

Darling

The fire that once danced inside you

Where did it go

What has extinguished it

The trauma has been entirely too much

Why can’t they see

You should be treated so much better than this

They tore out your womb

And don’t want to deal with the consequences

If only we lived in another world

Blackness, silence is taking you too far out

A long time ago

In a dream

Watching a beached whale

You said with a look of deep despair

The whales are such sad creatures

And it was so deep

The realisation of the painful journey we shared

Leading into loss and abandonment

Please God, let this dream have been a sign

Let that

Which has been submerged

Rise

Please don’t disappear

Allow yourself to be buried

Please come back to me

Sister